98. VIGILANCE

Eternal vigilance is the price of liberty.

A smart dude said that, I just can’t remember who. But that’s how I feel today. I haven’t been very vigilant these past few weeks especially with what I put into my body. I’ve gained a considerable amount of mass for the past two months, from as low as 196lbs; I’m back to 108lbs. I hate it so much right now that I’m continuing the diet update blog series. So voila!

You’re asking the monitor right now, what the freaking hell happened? I can name three things.

1. Food consumption has gone up, including rice and beer. My two worst enemies! After the holiday season there was a lot of meetings and conferences. Heck, I have already scheduled two drinking sessions this week.
2. Another reason is the lack of badminton buddies. Sure we used to play two to three times a week. It was awesome, the pain, sweat and injuries. But now, one has a new restaurant, the other a new boyfriend and the other well, a new life. So I need people to play with!!
3. Depression. You know me, I am weak. First sign of depression I open up the fridge, fire up the stove and consume as much food and alcohol I possibly can. Quoting fat bastard: I eat because I’m depressed. I’m depressed because I eat. Or something to that effect.

I have to attack the problem methodically. Last time, a surprise crash diet worked because my body wasn’t ready for the pain and suffering. Right now, I have to take it slow. I will start the diet by cutting down on alcohol and rice then, a constant barrage of stationary bikes and push ups. I may not be able to smash cock ever again but the past is the past and I have to let that part of me go.

I must move on.